I knew something was wrong. I was feeling too sad. I took my phone and searched through the contacts. One by one, the names of my 'friends' passed by. I reached the end. I couldn't call any of them or tell them to have a meetup. How could I? I haven't talked or met with them for two long years.
It was around October 2012. I let it go. Afterall, I have to focus on my career. Sadness is for the weak.
The years have went by. I have grown sadder. I find social interactions immensely awkward and troublesome. I haven't made any close friends - the type of friends I made in school, the friends who I could kill for, the friends whom I left - all because I had goals to fulfill.
My satisfaction levels are down too. I don't feel that good from my achievements. Take an example. Some days back I won a Samsung Galaxy Tab from American Express. It didn't feel like anything. People were congratulating me. I was thanking them and thinking why the hell are they doing that. Do they think that I am happy?
After some soul-searching since yesterday, it looks like I am stuck in Overkill Cult. I have become too goal oriented. So much that I find friends and families not worth my time. I have the next book to read, next contest to attend, next lecture to watch, next article to go through and so on. Incidentally, none of them revolves around friends or family members.
Why do we work? To make our lives better. To spend quality time with people who care for us and are close to us. What is the worth of our work, if it forces you to leave people in the sidelines?
It's time for some action.
It was around October 2012. I let it go. Afterall, I have to focus on my career. Sadness is for the weak.
The years have went by. I have grown sadder. I find social interactions immensely awkward and troublesome. I haven't made any close friends - the type of friends I made in school, the friends who I could kill for, the friends whom I left - all because I had goals to fulfill.
My satisfaction levels are down too. I don't feel that good from my achievements. Take an example. Some days back I won a Samsung Galaxy Tab from American Express. It didn't feel like anything. People were congratulating me. I was thanking them and thinking why the hell are they doing that. Do they think that I am happy?
After some soul-searching since yesterday, it looks like I am stuck in Overkill Cult. I have become too goal oriented. So much that I find friends and families not worth my time. I have the next book to read, next contest to attend, next lecture to watch, next article to go through and so on. Incidentally, none of them revolves around friends or family members.
Why do we work? To make our lives better. To spend quality time with people who care for us and are close to us. What is the worth of our work, if it forces you to leave people in the sidelines?
It's time for some action.
